Wasteland Kings

Tag: shame

I pulled air in and let it out. This seemed so simple. It also seemed impossible. What would lie on the other side? Would there would be rejection? Maybe it will just be a bunch of anger. Could they ever love me the same way they have in the past? I’ve done amends with three people so far; it’s the central part of the 9th Step of Regeneration. None of them have been easy. The process of actions, thoughts, and…

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. – Hebrews 12:1-2 One of…

The shame created by our addictions is a very powerful force and plays a large role in holding us back from the love and freedom that God offers us. Shame plays such an important role because it lies to us about our identity and how God sees us. I know from personal experience that shame can convince us that our addictions define us and that they cause God to become disappointed in us or care about us less. We must…

It hurts when someone doesn’t love you back. You can feel the hurt in your bones and it’s not something that passes quickly. I’ve been thinking recently about the fact that God goes through this pain everyday. God actively loves me and expresses that love in a multitude of ways. I acknowledge only a fraction of these expressions and take very little time to stop and appreciate His love or respond to it because I tend to believe that my…

Sometimes, I have a hard time hearing the real truth or intention of God’s Word. I tend to negatively interpret what God is saying to me and interpret things from Scripture that God never intended to communicate. This is a problem because my negative interpretations disrupt my relationship with God keep me from experiencing His love for me. For example, I do not take it very well when the Bible tells me to be thankful. I don’t disagree with the…